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HAPPY NYE ALL (L)

ONLY ONE DAY LEFT OF 2009 TO MAKE AMENDS, FIX A FEW BROKEN SHIT, MOVE ON, ACCOMPLISH SOME CRAZY SHIT AND MAKE THE MOST OF 2009

and i hope all girls will have a less stressful and happy love life cos we all know guys are assholes :) haha jokes, damn i wont bash 'em guys any further


well i had a lot of ups & a few downs (thank god) but i swear, the best people i know and i cherish and WILL stick with me no matter what in 2010 are :

VANESSA . FELICIA . MEGAN . MELINDA

these babies, i know i can count on :)





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"HAPPY NYE ALL (L)" was posted On: 12/31/09, 1:03 AM | 0 ‚òÅ


seventy3 |

i officially cannt download any songs til new years ! i cant continue watching bof either D: today i went to cabra RSL at like 8.30, the foood was sooooo shit no jokes.

EVERYONE, DO NOT GO TO CABRA RSL SERIOUSLY !


yeah i got kinda bored :D LOL



im gunna go slowly insane if i stay home another day, which i will ! omfg me and billy were so bored, we started talking bout brazillians .. and what not LOL


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"seventy3 |" was posted On: 12/27/09, 10:52 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


seventy2 |

i fucking hate my family especially my sister, that motherfucking crazy fatfuck cow, fucking bitch.

T__T i stay home and i get beaten, i go out and i get lectured i have such a sad fucking life like no jokes

yesterday i ran into andrew and i went rocky's house tto watch a couple of movies, i had to take care of him and i said happy birthday to son as well, so i was gunna stay longer with rocky or with son, my two favourite guys :) ngaww anyways my sister and my cousin fucking calls me a million times around 8.30 to go home, i go on the 8.40 train, so im at cheso i walked up to cheso square, i got myself a chicken kebab on a stick, i get in the car

Bitch : "WHY THE FUCK DID U BUY FOOD FOR YOU SLUT, THERES FOOD AT HOME"

in the bitchest, loudest fucking tone.


andim like ....

i didnt say anything to her man. i get home my dad full nice to me, my mum full screams at me and my sister beats me up with her heels ...

my cousin and her sister and her bf are in her room full talking having a nice time, the adults and little kids are in the lounge having fun, im like fuck this i went into my room and stayed there all night, only person that cared for me that night was my aunty. far came in my room brought me food, was gunna give me 50 bucks but i couldnt take it, cos thats slack. my other aunty was fkn tipsy was all over me and she kissed me on the lips like wf ahha . and i came home early for this shit i should've stayed longer til 10.30 or something


anyways, shittest christmas i've ever had, even worse that last year when my bf had to go vietnam but still, i didnt even see my two favourite girls .. fuck --"

and im not even going out for the next 5 days so i can latee at nye ... omfg and my rents dont go home til 8 or 9 today, i should've went out, and yes my sister DID beat me AGAIN TODAY ...

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk my life is sad, it shows on my hickey as well, fucking oath im pissed off as an angry drunk lebo.






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"seventy2 |" was posted On: 12/26/09, 6:13 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


seventy1 | all my heart

yesterday i've never been so fucked up in my life .. i'll try to never be like that again :( well i went livo yesterday too i missed my train and i lost 10 bucls :( but vanessa gave me 10 bucks ngaw thanks babe and she got me gold eyeliner hehehe thanks again huns :)


right now im so confused bout this feeling in my chest if its for that person who loves me or someone else. but i think and i know that most likely im just thankful he was there for me and took care of me although i kind of wish someone else was there for me too but he wasnt =\





I'm gunna love you with all my heart

- Unknown



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"seventy1 | all my heart" was posted On: 12/23/09, 3:23 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty9 | oo 69 :) LOL

ngaw today was an okay day im not writing much todayjust in case ... rofls but i dont feel as excited for xmas anymore for some reason :S

oh my god ... AVATAR WAS SO FKN GOOD

the graphics get a bit trippy cos its moving too fast at a point, but still ! so good D: i heard 2012 is good but fuck that LOL i know the world aint gunna end in two years !




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"sexty9 | oo 69 :) LOL" was posted On: 12/20/09, 9:51 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty8 |

btw this is a temporary skin im getting a new skin later on hahaha i cbf searching and changing when halfway doing this skin i founda better one .. T_T

i might ask my mum for christmas money :) ehehe

well it seems like im gunna have a good christmas this year .. ish :S cos i got a new monitor + my sis bought me clothes and yeah hahaha. i dont know what im gunna do for nye cos yeah .. no boy + two of my fav girls wont be with me so cut haha jks





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"sexty8 |" was posted On: 12/18/09, 11:07 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty7 |

so like i went to this massive sale with brands like mossimo & cooper st. 50% marked or full price items omfg soooo nicee BUT i didnt have much money on me so i only bought a jorge hoodie i should've bought a pair of these really nice Jorge shorts and i got a allabouteve tee in size 8 i was meant to get it in size 10 fucking oath :@ so im gunna plan to go to parra glue and secretly switch so i can get a size 10 :) hehehe but i needa do that soon plus i reaaaaally want a nice & decent cocktail dress - most likely creamy white i found a really nice one at forever new but they didnt have my size .. T_T .

& hopefully my sis wont be lazy tmrw so she can take me to the bec&bridge sale :S i really really want a new dress for nye/xmas






sorry for shit quality ><




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"sexty7 |" was posted , 10:17 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty6 |

ngaww felicia is finally gone :( i'll miss u a lot babe ! *sooks* i forgot to call before u left but hopefully the long text i sent u was good enough to make you happy :)


allnightering was fun with u well not really allnighter cos u went off so i went off as well. this is what i did last night LOL





hahahaah ^ i fucking died at 3 am cos i was sick + i had a headache




I MISS YOU BUB ! HAVE A FUN TRIP ULEH :D





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"sexty6 |" was posted , 10:06 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty5 |

i hate it i hate it i hate it. karma is such a bitch

today i went to joong's house and it was alright, fuck i went past/to punchbowl like over 5 times cos i kept stopping and switching trains becuase he was late but he was late cos he was getting me a dogtag, 2 and a hlaf years i knew him almost 3 years and this was the first day i saw him !

3 more days til felicia leaves, one week til my grandma comes over (fml) & 11 days til xmas :)



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"sexty5 |" was posted On: 12/14/09, 8:31 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty4 |

hmm feeling so much happier and better tahn last week, fuck. anyways yesterday was like relaxing and all til the end fucking gronks wouldnt pay up for it when they wanted it and thought it was funny. and he starts talking to me like all normal and everything, nah fuck off. hmm i did so much yesterday .. :( my throat and lungs killed yetserday but now im normal haha :) i got my plates today i fucking hate them ~

i curled my hair like 3 days in a row i kinda forgot how my hair looks like naturally LOL but i left it today i cbf doing anything, next week, i'll straighten it all week 8) hehe i was meant to go city/beach for some party with joong, but i cbbbb . i dont wanna bus it then train it like fuck that and i wouldhave to get there at 11 - 11.30 im not gunna wake up at like 9 to get ready omggg so early and i would've have to go cabra to pick up my plates then head to bondi.

hmm i only have one thing planned so far for holidays :S which is go see joong on monday and i dont know where pobably canterbury. and i think im going city for nye :D my grandma is gunna come over on the 20th and is staying for roughly 3 months .. ughh ...



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"sexty4 |" was posted On: 12/12/09, 4:57 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty3 | this is the reason why im single





being retarted at 2 am ..



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"sexty3 | this is the reason why im single" was posted On: 12/9/09, 4:25 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty2 | invented sex

okay so summer is finally showing !

today i got my sign out card but noooo, i couldnt find my foodtech teacher + two teachers were away :@ i could've signed out today and just stay home tmrw but noo i guess i have to go school tmrw ! --" and it was fucking hot just walking around too.

i saw this realllllly nice eyeshadow pad that comes with new idea but i dont wanna spend money cos i wanna save up for somehting else D: anyways today, just the day, just the date .. just you.




Imma make you think i reinvented sex

- Trey Songz Ft. Usher & Keri Hilson



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"sexty2 | invented sex" was posted On: 12/8/09, 5:11 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty1 | stuck in the middle

well a lot has been happening and half of the time i wish i was seriously deaf so i wouldnt hear anything. i dont wanna think about the guys at all. so the plan right now is avoid .. avoid & avoiddd . sometimes its better off not to say anything at all people ! the only thing that im really looking forward to and which i am focusing on is, yes, CHRISTMAS =D . three things which im keeping in mind and always on the good side : my girls, my teeth & my money . strange combination i know hahaha . i really want a new dress for NYE !

well i took my top braces off :D hehehehe im so happy one more month then i'll have no braces at all ! but im still gunna have to wear plates T__T i keep licking my teeth LOL like non stop.

anyway formal was suuuuch a blast :) most of the details and what happened is on vanessa's blog. i didnt take that many photos, i just wanted to cherish the moment and make the most out of the night. i danced a lot of felicia and sokeyta. i danced a bit with vanessa but she was with lawerance most of the night haha. the food was not that good, and i cant believe i paid 2 bucks for the cake and yet they didnt even serve it out they let it at the front. my entree was like ............ no words for it. the main was alright .. better than sefton's steak . the dessert was like orgasmic . seriously one of the best desserts i've ever had D:


FORMAL 31209 <3













one of the best nights of my life ! love u guys !



And it gets so hard sometimes to know just what to do, stuck in the middle with you

- Jay Sean Ft. Craig David



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"sexty1 | stuck in the middle" was posted On: 12/7/09, 5:08 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


sexty | A List Of Things Girls Wish Guys Knew

1. Don't think that just because you didn't tell us we are never going to find out.

2. Our friends know EVERYTHING.

3. EVERYTHING said to our friends will be told to us. Garranteed.

4. No matter what we say, we hate your ex-girlfriend.

5. We check our phones every hour to see if you have replied to our texts, then worry if you haven't.

6. The fact you might leave us for another girl keeps us up at night.

7. When we're not talking to you on MSN, we're actually waiting for you to talk to us (in a non-snobby way, we want to see if you still care enough to talk to us).

8. When we act sad, we want you to hug us.

9. Our favourite part of the MSN convo is at the end when you say good bye, because that's the part you say you love us.

10. We actually freak out on what to do during holidays like Valentines Day.

11. We don't care what our friends think of you, but we do care what your friends think of us.

12. Yes, you might be the reason we failed that Maths test.

13. We are very, very scared of scaring you away.

14. We don't care about what we talk about, just as long as we have your attention for a few minutes.

15. Of course, we do believe the crap we read in magazines.

16. We have mood swings. Get over it.

17. Everytime you're around other girls, we worry they are better than us.

18. We don't want to hear how cool your ex-girlfriend/neighbour/best gal friend is.

19. Movies like 'He's Just Not That Into You' depress us.

20. We will move mountains on our timetable if it means seeing you.

21. We compare every other guy to you, and you always come out best.

22. We hate it when you go to discos without us.

23. We hate feeling as if we are like any other girl.

24. Don't brag about other girls liking you, it just makes us insecure.

25. When we say everything is 'fine', it generally means everything is absolutely horrible and we are on the brink of falling to pieces.

26. Don't just say 'ok' when we say we don't want to talk about it.

27. If you want to know something about us, ask our best friend.

28. If you do not hug us, we will not kiss you.

29. We think you are the best guy in the world.

30. We.Will.Kill.You.If.We.See.You.Slow.Dancing.With.Another.Girl.Without.Telling.Us.

31. We really do want you to stick up for us.

32. Compliments. We love them.

33. Be on time. We will think you don't care if you're not on time at a certain place.

34. Whether you say (L) or luv or love does matter.

35. We don't care if you couldn't come on that date because of the most embarrassing reason in the world, just don't lie to us.

36. We like cuddling up to you so let us.

37. Silent Treatment + Short Answers + Not Smiling or Laughing + Evil Looks = YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG.

38. You will be classed in our 'Hate' list if you forget our birthday.

39. Do not ask what's wrong. We'll never tell you we just want you to cuddle us.

40. You need to tell us what you think of us, we don't make assumptions (apart from 'OMG HE'S GONE OFF ME HASN'T HE?!')

41. Telling us that we are pretty will mean absolute LOADS.

42. Do not make fun of us unless we are in a good mood. As insecure as girls go, we take these things very seriously.

43. If you do end up doing Number 42, you just have to hope we aren't in a bad mood.

44. Saying something sweet MIGHT get you off the hook. Doing something sweet will ALWAYS get you off the hook.

45. We never forget things. Ever.

46. We over-analyze everything.

47. We over-react to everything.

48. When we are mad at you, we aren't actually mad at you we just want you to apologize so we can start showing we like you again.

49. Please don't stand 384931491329403 feet away from us. Even if we are scary.

50. Please acknowledge that when we are online when you sign in, we probably have waited ages for you to come online so please make it worthwhile.

51. We do not care if 50 000 other guys declared their love for us if you never do it none of it matters.

52. We don't like being used.

53. We like it when you do un-expected nice things.

54. We usually don't let just any guy make us cry, so if you make us cry, damnnn you must have done something bad...

55. This is the way it works: You don't give us any attention, we dump you. It is NOT: You don't give us any attention, we chase after you. Deal with it.

56. We like it when you are protective of us. It makes us feel special.

57. Unless she is a moronic idiot, a girl who truly loves you will love you for a long, long time.

58. When we come back from a holiday and brag about how awesome it was, during the entire time there we were probably thinking about you. A lot.

59. No matter where we are or what we are doing, we really want you to hold our hand.

60. And please for the love of god shut up about how fit other girls are. You know we like you and the fact you do this despite you knowing how we feel is just evil





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"sexty | A List Of Things Girls Wish Guys Knew" was posted On: 12/5/09, 7:39 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


fifty9 |

i wont blog in a while.



all my fault . HE didnt fucking help with how i was feeling either. i dont know what to do but i know how to feel. i love you. i love you more than ever now because it's true what they say. you never know what u have until u lost it. i never appreciated you and i should've cared for you more and gave you more signs that i love you. i was the one that treated you wrong.

i know its too late & i know u wont come back to me. thats what i think anyway, i dont know for sure until i try but im too scared to try. there are a million things i could say/tell you right now but i know its not the right time. i dont know when the right time is because u need time to be a lone & so do i but then the more i leave it off the more, im not gunna cross your mind as much and therefore move on.

& yes since u've let me go, im waiting for u to come back and if u dont, then thats when i know you dont feel the same way and it will be time for me to let myself go and get up on my feet. im currently watching myself fall.

everytime people ask me "so hows you & richard ;)" i break down & give a short answer and just walk away. no, im not alright, no, im not okay.

& yes i do admitt, i thought i would cope with it better than im coping right now but i fucking love you. im cutting guys that i knew i had a problem with off so my main focus is you . it always has been but my main focus got a bit blurry.

i really wanna go away. far away. anywhere but here.

&yeah 3 weeks might not sound long and it wasnt long enough for me . and i know i was acting so selfish and disrespectful & inconsiderate. im sorry.

i miss you so much, i want to be in ur arms, i wanna kiss you again, maybe for the last time, i wanna see u but i know i cant handle it.

i will do anything for a second chance. undo my wrongs and instead of putting my all into the relationship, i'll put my all into you.



RICHARD TRANG, I LOVE YOU



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"fifty9 |" was posted On: 12/2/09, 5:33 PM | 0 ‚òÅ


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